I am very grateful to have this Deafnotes that I am using my computer with a big monitor to have an opportunity for me to have a real communicate with people. Deafnotes and the computer gives me a chance to open up my true inner soul that needs to be heard for what Audism/Deafism people did it to us as a Deaf children. DeafNotes is my second home and giving me a freedom of a real communication that I can express in my own true inner soul as is. I couldnt do it when I was a little gal.
I can express my own words when I typed a lot because I owed it myself to express my own true feelings for Deaf children's sake that needs to be heard because I am not the only one who went through many harsh/nightmare experiences by Audism people in this hearing world ( hate that term of this is a hearing world). Also, it s so much easier for me to edit it without the time limitation that helps me to improve for a better in English written as much as I can. The reason is that it took me a lot of time to reread/edit my writings in here as usual because I want people to understand why am I trying to reach out and educate people in a very positive reinforcement as much as I can explain by the bottom of my heart. It s not easy for me to do but I didnt giving it up that easily as I can. I cannot write with a pen or pencil anymore because it doesnt help me to express very much even though I can speak well, however I still cannot able to express enough from my own true feelings. Everything is blocked my brain in some ways that I just could not do it because of a very bad scar inside of me and my heart.
ASL helps me to set myself freedom for who I am by or for being deaf. PAH, I can being me , myself, and the whole of me as a Deaf person since more than five years ago. I am facing my own deafness that I have to live with the rest of my life, not by the parents, or anybody who thinks they can conform and force me to do this and that. I have nothing to be shamed of myself because I am deaf and having a speech impairment. I will never regret myself for or by being deaf ever again that makes me so angry all those years, I was so struggled for nothing. I am so ashamed for not having ASL in 3/4 of my life because people are being so selfish and lazy as well. I do not need to be covered up my own being deaf as is. I am not your responsibility for your own communication sakes. So be it! It has to have the two ways of street not half way to meet on hearing side only.
I cannot complain about Deaf accessories because I didnt have any of those accessories when I was a little gal. It helps me to practice and practice more in English written with a very positive hearing or latened D/deaf people on the internet. I do appreciate their supports and let me know how much improvement that I did typed my own English written that helps me to see the truth that I DID IT on my own without their degradation of our Deaf language. They knew the truth it s not coming from ASL itself but ORAL rules caused too much damaged for Deaf children's Literacy all along. One thing I must emphazise that I will not dealing with those people with a very nasty/negative audist attitude because it costs me so much money that I couldnt afford to buy / pay everything as far as it s my personal's need and makes me angry too much. So therefore that is how I am becoming a very outspoken about having too much damaged towards Deaf babies/children 's literacy by Audism people in many ways.
Deaf people and I should have the equal access as far as it s our Deaf rights and the right in our own boundary for or by being deaf to be protected especially for Deaf babies/ children.
This is for a real someone has no right to oppress or discriminate toward me and Deaf colored people with or without disabilites who cant or dont hear nothing or everything. Also, Hearing disablities that has no vocal while they can hear and cant talk as a hearing person. That s our rights that need to be heard again.
I have seen too many hearing and deaf with a very negative view of our deafness that doesnt appreciate to have those Deaf accessories that helps us to be independent in our Deaf lives. I dont need to depend on Hearing people or their knowing my business all the time. I am so sick of their whiners or negative remarks after all those man-made are not expecting to be perfect objects if you mind.
People have no right to force us to listen or hear after all we did the best we could hear or not hear if you mind. It is not so important for us to hear for you or your sakes. Dont treat us like a hearing person after all you couldnt cope the fact of reality with a real Deaf people in this earth from a start that turns me off in a big time. That is when we became more disabled because of your attitude needs to tune up as well. Leave us Deaf people and our natural abilities and adaptations alone that is very healthy for me and many deafies while you dont have your own positive thinkings that is not a real healthy people who have a very low esteem.
You know what I prefer to be Deaf than acting out like a unreal hearing because I am a fighter and believe in myself and Deaf children who can do it without having device if you mind. We dont want to deal with your own co-dependency that is not a great idea to have this kind of negative or bad healthy to affect us, deafies by Audism people anymore or depends on hearing device that doesnt helps us in many ways but sounds only that is having too much noise pollutions to damage our deaf ears. There is no better situation to avoid more damages towards Deaf babies/children for so many years as usual.
That's no excuse for not hiring Deaf people like me for any jobs while we can communicate with any people thru Deaf accessories that includes the computer, aim, DeafChat site, fax, emails, vp phone, webcam and many mores.
I do really thanked to the owner of DeafNotes for allowing me for who I am and able to express my harsh/bad experiences that I am very tired to have it follow all my life that hasnt been stopped yet. I am not regretting for saying the truth experiences that a little gal went through that is how she became stronger. This is a real diversity for me to be here than anywhere else outside of the internet because no one stop me from telling the truth.
Thank you!
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